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It doesn’t have to be like that
The old quote, "Reports of my demise have been greatly exaggerated...", very much applies here right now. I've received several kind e-mails expressing regret over seeing me go and giving up this blog. I guess I should set the record straight that I haven't 'gone' anywhere. Yes, I'm taking a break -- but that's pretty much it. I must confess like any knee-jerk human reaction when under constant fire, the desire to chuck it all did cross my mind. And I came about theeees close to doing so. In fact, if there had been a ceremonial-blog-goodbye offered off the top of the Skyway Bridge, I would have been first in line. But then survival instinct usually kicks in and you evaluate just who is allowed to do just what in your life. And the only person with the right to take this space away from me is, well, me.

I will admit some of the things I've read about me online have made my toes curl. I will also admit I haven't read it all and don't intend to start. So there's no need to pass along links... There gets a point where you just see so much, that your mind steels, and that old "I'm rubber, you're glue" adage comes into play. Especially appropriate given most of the attacks I've read to date would be better used in the lower educational system.

And please don't expect me to return in kind around here. That's just not my style. Although I don't always believe turning the other cheek is appropriate in life, in this instance, I think it just may be. What would I accomplish by stooping to their level and multi-posting and repeat-commenting across the blogisphere, other than to offer up more divisiveness -- which is what many claim got us in this mess to begin with. I refuse to lower myself to type out some of the very same things I've seen attached with my name, no matter how I may feel deep down. So if you're here for the 'show', please move along. There's nothing to see here...

I've never claimed I was perfect. I never claimed that every decision I've ever made has been the right one. Or one that you would - or should - make the same choices yourself if suddenly found in my position. "I stumble and fall, baby I do it all...I'm only human on the inside..." I've put the lyrics up before, and they're just as true today as they were then. I think you have to go through life doing the best you can with what you're given. Sometimes that even means taking a hardline "I've had enough" approach and, gasp, acting like a bitch. Unfortunately some people don't seem to realize or care when they've crossed that line from "bitch" to "vindictive witch who can't let go and just move on". When one truly takes a step back and examines the real injustices of this world, I fail to see where the demise of an online acquaintanceship over opposing views really ranks right up there in the grand scheme of things. Or warrants any of the public animosity repeatedly displayed.

I've definitely seen some of the worst of human nature this week. But just as with the yin and the yang, I've also seen the best and an abundance of kindness. That's what makes me want to continue to get up and do this every day. Well, soon at least...

So don't go tap-dancing on my grave just yet. You won't be getting rid of me that easily. Bruises heal and time helps you forget. In the meantime, I plan to continue enjoying that fantabulous thing called 'real life'. I highly suggest trying it sometime... Thanks again to everyone who has written! -Robyn

UPDATE: I've been blogging 23 months now. I've had 24,259 comments to date. And I've only went over the individual's head that left the e-mails and comments from the workplace once. 1:24,259:23. Yes, I very much see a pattern here. You? Maybe, just maybe, there was more to it than you ever saw. Stop and think about that for awhile.

UPDATE 2: I've brought the archive pages and syndication feeds back, for now at least. I set a few posts to draft that I no longer want to deal with the traffic from... Again, my blog - my rules. Thanks for understanding!

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Wipe off that angel face and go back to high school

Beautiful —Christina Aguilera

Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
Then suddenly
It's hard to breathe
Now and then I get insecure
From all the pain
I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful
No matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful
In every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
Oh no
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
You're so consumed
In all your doom, oh
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The pieces gone
Left the puzzle undone
Is that the way it is

'Cause I am beautiful
No matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful
In every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
Oh no
So don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
(No matter what we do)
No matter what we say
(No matter what we say)
We're the song inside the tune
(Yeah, oh yeah)
Full of beautiful mistakes

And everywhere we go
(And everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(The sun will always, always, shine)
And tomorrow we might awake
On the other side

'Cause we are beautiful
No matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down
Oh no
We are beautiful
In every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down Oh no
So don't you bring me down today

Oh, oh
Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down, oh
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I want candy
I need something light and fluffy around here right now...so hows-about we all share our favorite childhood candy? Mine, hands down, would have to be Zotz. I loved to make those suckers foam up in my mouth. ('Splains a lot doesn't it?) Here's a few ideas to get you started...

Pixy Stix, Gold Rock Nugget Bubble Gum, Charms, Nerds, Sprees, Lik-M-Aid Fun Dip, Bubble Gum Cigarettes, Atomic Fire Balls, Lemonheads, Tart 'n' Tiny, Now & Later, Boston Baked Beans, Candy Buttons, Laffy Taffy, Pop Rocks, Candy Lipstick, Sixlets, Candy Necklace, Big League Chew, Rock Candy, and DOTS
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Be good be good be good be good, Johnny
Johnny Depp is 40 now?!? I think I need a Geritol...
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Wisdom for the ages
"We need to start again. We need to stop saying how wonderful things are. We need to openly, truthfully and respectfully admit that the internet itself, in almost all of what's been done with it, is shit."

(Link via the husband and Sensible Erection.)
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I think a change'll do you good
Admin note: This blog is now running the new Scripty Goddess Comment Queue Script/MT Hack. All comments made on this site will now be pre-approved by moi before being made public. My blog. My rules. Quite frankly, I'm sick of the trolls... So don't panic if your comment doesn't show up immediately. I'll get them all added in just as soon as I can! Just file this one under "it's about damn time".
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Got me lookin' so crazy right now
Don't know if anyone caught Big Brother IV tonight, but there's a Sooner in the hizzouse (named Nathan). And in somewhat related news...must have one of these!
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I always feel like somebody's watchin' me
Floridians may or may not be aware of this state policy -- but rather than being able to "opt-in" to make your drivers license information public, in this state you have to "opt-out". Otherwise by default your information is automatically accessible when you obtain a Florida driver's license. If you haven't filled out the official "opt-out" application, individuals and companies can buy your home address and other identifying information. For more information on how to request your information be made private (we did this several months ago and it took a few weeks to process), visit the Driver Privacy Protection Act website.
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Too legit...too legit to quit
Get devoured I choose to abuse, misuse and confuse
Competitors who think they're makin' up all the rules, fools
In the game lame and insane it's a shame I gotta do this but
I remain the same unchanged gettin' better never known
As a sweater kickin' it at the top cause I got myself together...

Hey, hey!
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I can take you through the center of the dark

[rocket baby]

[midnight street magic]

The view of the NASA Opportunity Mars Rover on a Delta II rocket as seen from our street a few minutes ago. Just another benefit to living in Florida... Yeah, it's not professional quality. But whaddya gonna do? It's a free show.
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Three cheers for the red, white and blue
This photo's caption is seriously making me rethink my Bomb Pop obsession...
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Smack my bitch up
Just a quick reminder as the "not as big as they claimed small-name-site hackfest" has kicked off...back up those sites! Because legit-threat or not this time around, it could be you the next... (Reminders via Venomous Kate and suburban blight.)
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