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Posted: 09.09.2002
Just a heads-up that my blog will sit empty on Wednesday. I don't feel right about blogging the trivial on a day that is anything but. I don't want to play the "my pain is more than your pain" game that so many in the media and in Washington seem to insist we play. I just want to spend a whole day reflecting on what goes through my mind every time my eye happens to catch a glimpse of this:

I can't bear to look at it sometimes. Yet I can't bear to put it away. As much as it hurts to remember, I won't let myself forget. We received this snowglobe as a Christmas present a few years back from dear friends in New York (now in Texas). Michael was in the Twin Towers on an almost daily basis at one point, but because of their upcoming cross-country move, he had taken a half-day off the morning of September 11th.

When I unwrapped the snowglobe for the first time and wound it up, I burst into tears. It plays "New York, New York". My adopted father's side of the family is all from New York (Wantaugh, Long Island to be exact). My grandfather was a big, jovial Irishman that always reminded me of Tip O'Neal growing up. And he loved "New York, New York". If we were at a country club, a restaurant, or anywhere with a piano when I was a child -- by the end of the night, that song would be played. And at his funeral, that song was his recessional. So the snowglobe had always been a bittersweet reminder of him every time I would see it. And now, it's a bittersweet reminder of so much more we've all lost.

I'm still very thankful that Todd and I chose to visit the World Trade Center rather than the Empire State Building when we visited New York in 1995. The city seemed endless from the observation deck.

I can still remember him pressing up against the glass in the viewing area as I stood far, far behind the rail -- terrified of the height. And to think that fear I felt was nothing compared to what went through the minds of those who stood there after me six years later...

So many other bloggers can say it better. So on September 11th, I won't be saying anything at all. All I can really offer to show my respect to this day and those who were lost doesn't come in the form of a Hallmark. It comes with my silence. May the God I believe in with all my heart keep safe and protect us all, and comfort those who will never stop hurting.

Hey boy take a look at me...let me dirty up your mind...


¤ ¤ credit: laura | 09.09.02 at 03:57 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

i'm going a different route. i won't change my blog schedule. this is not meant as a disrespect to any of those who lost their lives during the tragedy.

sure, i will take time to remember, to ponder. but that will be on my own time. in my own way.

¤ ¤ credit: mikey | 09.09.02 at 05:09 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

I think that's the only way, honestly Mikey (doing what's best for you) -- no two people cope with things exactly the same. And no way of remembering is 'better' than another, regardless of what MSNBC and FOX News would try to have you believe...

¤ ¤ credit: robyn | 09.09.02 at 05:12 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

beautiful post - you have eloquent thoughts, and I'm glad you are taking your own time to just be reflecting tomorrow... btw, I almost bought a snowglobe just like that when I was in NY the 2nd time, and I wish I had.

¤ ¤ credit: kristine | 09.09.02 at 05:14 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

i actually thought of doing the same -- but then i realized it would be so much harder to get through without the outlet of blogging, without the connection to my friends out there. i think it is a beautiful gesture to have that 'day of silence', i'm just ... not that strong.

¤ ¤ credit: kd | 09.09.02 at 06:02 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

Here in Australia, they're asking people to turn on their headlights or light a candle at 8:45am, all well and good, but over here that's not when it happened. I'm going to be commemorating late at night. I remember vividly someone ringing us after 11pm and telling us what happened and we just sat in bed watching as the first and then the second towers collapsed.

I'm not sure if I'll blog or not, I haven't really decided, but my thoughts will be with all those brave civilians who helped out (including the FDNY & NYPD) and the people on the other plane who stopped something even more tragic happening (wherever it was heading). It's a day in history I'll never forget and I will always treat it with the respect it deserves.

¤ ¤ credit: Jessica Parker | 09.09.02 at 07:12 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

I think I will be silent that day. I have said (and will continue tomorrow) to say more than any person should really be saying on the subject. It has been cathartic for me.

I plan on just posting a few pictures that day of some of my dad's colleagues that died that day and leaving it at that.


¤ ¤ credit: michele | 09.09.02 at 07:39 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

I love your globe. Its very beautiful and moving.

¤ ¤ credit: Camille | 09.09.02 at 09:51 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

What a beautiful post. You're saying what I feel but can't get out... I'll never forget.

¤ ¤ credit: christi | 09.10.02 at 12:56 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

i feel the same as kd -- i need to blog and surf because i need that sense of community, to feel in touch with others, and i need to express myself. it's the best way i know how to deal with it... otherwise, i feel as if my brain my explode.

¤ ¤ credit: zuly | 09.10.02 at 12:24 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

Rob, your grandfather also worked at the World Trade Centers when he lived in NY, and when he went back on business trips. His first office was in the building that was there BEFORE the Trade Centers were built. Just thought you would be interested in that.

I work at a military installation, it's been suggested here that we all wear red, white and blue to work, and at noon all stand and say the pledge of allegiance. I like that idea, just a suggestion some of the rest of you might like too. May God Bless America. And remember, that without God, we are just One Nation Under.

My prayers go out to those who lost loved ones and friends that day.

¤ ¤ credit: Robyn's Mama | 09.10.02 at 01:27 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

I did`n put even a single word to my website. I decided to spent that day in web silence ..

¤ ¤ credit: djfretka | 09.12.02 at 01:40 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

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