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Posted: 04.26.2002
The fires of hell are too cold for this man
I've kept mostly silent about all of this fallen-priest hubbub that's been floating around the blog world lately. There are some things you just see with your eyes that hurt you so very deeply as a human being, you almost have to close your eyes and breathe deeply or the pain and blackness will consume you. This is one of those topics for me. As someone who's tried desperately (with the help of medical science) for several months to conceive a child -- each time being told "no" or "not right now" by God -- the thought of the very clergy I would have baptise and help raise that child harming them -- well I just can't bear it. I can't even make it through a news story on abused children. My heart literally sinks. That people could take such a precious gift, always unobtainable for me...

But then I got to this story on CNN. Now I am beyond shocked, bewildered and hurt. I am so angry I feel I could become violent if I stood with this man face-to-face. There is no earthly punishment good enough -- and the thought of a "Godly punishment" one day isn't good enough either. A man of the cloth should know better. And I don't buy that "we're only human" bullshit they sometimes toss around. I am human. I am not versed with years of theology. I only have a bachelor's degree in history. But the DAY I hit puberty I knew it was WRONG to touch someone who hadn't. That is human instinct. That is what separates us from the animals. And these bastards are lower than any form of prison life I've ever come across. In prison they don't try so desperately to hide and cover up their sins, and protect their own regardless of the cost to anyone else. They make you their bitch over them. It's getting to the point we need to extend Megan's Law to warn of priests living in your area.

Why am I so riled up? Select quotes from the CNN article include:

"Much of my life these last few years has been choosing not twixt good and evil, but the less of the two evils ... my God, I've even taught kids to shoot up properly."

"One of the first things I do in a new city is to sign up at the local clinic for help with my VD."

"The documents also show that church leaders were worried about allegations that Shanley spoke at the opening session of the North American Man-Boy Love Association, known as NAMBLA, which advocates sexual interaction between men and boys."

"MacLeish has alleged that at least 30 youths were abused by Shanley."

I still have my faith...but right now I just don't know how it's staying there...

Hey boy take a look at me...let me dirty up your mind...

this makes me sick too. A total violation of trust.

My faith in God is unshaken. My faith in pple....well, that was gone a long time ago....

¤ ¤ credit: ladybug | 04.26.02 at 02:55 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Your sincere, optimistic faith is what the world needs right now. If we continue to be shocked by acts that are so obviously intrinsically wrong, hopefully, someday, punishment will fit the crime. Man, if you didn't know me, by that posting you'd think that I wasn't agnostic and that I believed in the death penalty! Sheesh, I must be outraged!

¤ ¤ credit: Susan | 04.26.02 at 03:31 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

All you gotta do is put your faith not in the people who stand on the pulpit every Sunday, but in God, and it's all good.

¤ ¤ credit: jesse | 04.26.02 at 07:52 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

I think it's time for the Church to dust off the "tools" left over from the Inquisition. Priests who abuse their power to sexually molest children can be flayed alive on pay-per-view while the Pope reads out loud about that good old fashioned Old Testament justice.

¤ ¤ credit: jamese | 04.26.02 at 10:48 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

As the wife of a sexual abuse survivor, I cannot tell you how disturbing these stories are.

I have seen first hand the lasting effects of abuse in my husband. He did a lot of hard work to deal with the abuse and he has succeeded. But please understand that it wasn't easy and this "success" still means greatly diminished self-esteem, fear when I grab him from behind and he doesn't immediately know its me, panic when his doctor touches him, occassionally freak-outs if I kiss him while he's asleep.... The loss of innocence and sacred trust are going to leave a mark that even years of therapy cannot fully erase.

I have to admit that I wonder why God would allow something like this to happen but I'm learning to accept that there's no way for me to understand it. Right now I'm putting my faith in God's healing powers and praying that he'll be with all these victims (as he is with Michael) and help them to heal and grow.

¤ ¤ credit: Angela | 04.26.02 at 12:06 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

Robyn, you must listen to your friends here. There is some great insight and advice they are sharing. As for your faith, put it in God, not man. Man will always let you down, God never will---and that includes in this issue as well. To quote a Bible verse you learned as a child, "vengeance is mine saith the Lord." These people will suffer His version of justice. This is more than we can impose, and it will be everlasting. May God bless these children. My prayers are with them and their families.

¤ ¤ credit: Mama | 04.26.02 at 01:06 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

as an abuse survivor, things like this really make me sad. It really destroyed my faith in God for a long time, I couldn't understand how God could let this happen to me, and it's only recently that I've been secure enough to get past this and kinda rediscover God. I can't imagine how much worse being abused by a member of the church would be, and my heart goes out to all the victims.

¤ ¤ credit: trish | 04.26.02 at 02:19 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

funny. i let off steam about this topic today, too. boston seems to be the epicenter of this mess -- and i'm so angry that the church doesn't seem nearly as outraged as the people are!!

¤ ¤ credit: susannah | 04.26.02 at 02:45 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

I have my faith in God. My faith in religion on the other hand ... well, that was never that strong to the begin with. My faith in humans is effected too.

¤ ¤ credit: Christine | 04.26.02 at 03:19 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

Many religious people I know are some of the most "ungodly" people I know. Even though I'm not what you'd call a religious person, I think that religious values are quite often not upheld by those that are very religious (not a sweeping statement, but I've found it in a large enough proportion of people I know to mention it). These bastards should be skinned alive.

I had no idea that NAMBLA was actually real, I thought it was a South Park creation. I can't believe that it's real, oh my god!!! Someone please castrate them all now and bring just a little sanity to the world for a moment.

I can assure you that if I were ever to meet anyone like this, they'd be getting a mouthful from me on how utterly disgusting I think their behaviour is.

¤ ¤ credit: Joanne | 04.26.02 at 06:22 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

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