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Posted: 02.22.2003
You wouldn't have to be a great detective to
see the things you do to me are self-reflexive

I think I'm in real danger of becoming 'the song blog' this month...but this song just came on randomly in my rotation, and after some of the things I've seen / heard floating around out there about me this week, I found the timing especially fitting...


People love to watch you die
And wonderful to tell
People you have never met
Claim to know you well

People love to watch you die
Dig your dignity
One guy said '(S)he's better dead
Than how (s)he used to be'

They'll sell the souvenirs
And the relics of your tears
They build a little shrine, wait until it shines
They love to watch you die and you know why

People love to watch you die
It gets them sexually
And then they smoke a cigarette
And make a cup of tea

People love to watch you fry
They love to throw the switch
They'll either have you crucified
Or burn you as a witch
They send bouquets of flowers
And then stare at space for hours
They build a little shrine, wait until it shines
They love to watch you die and you know why

People love to watch you die
Then give your family hell
They call it grief but it's just a relief
And they know that full well

People love to watch you drown
The symbol's what they need
They'd rather not see you at all
Than watch your hair recede
And just to watch your pain
They'd bring you back to life again
They build a little shrine, sing you Auld Lang Syne
They love to watch you die and you know why...

Lyrics Credit: John Wesley Harding



Hey boy take a look at me...let me dirty up your mind...



Ack. That's so horrible that people would do things to make you feel like that. I guess I should be thankful that I haven't blog surfed much at all this week (if at all). *sigh* Sometimes people really suck. Just remember - there are a lot of us out there cheering you on too.

¤ ¤ credit: Christine | 02.22.03 at 11:57 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

There are going to be big changes around here in the upcoming days. My blog will no longer contain details of our private lives. That will be on a private, passworded domain we already own -- and only our close friends get the logins. Tampatantrum.com will soon become a 100% fluff blog -- links, entertainment, news, recommended sites, etc. The days of being a public, personal journal are long gone. A few rotten apples did, in fact, spoil the whole bunch. No couple going through what we are should have to read the things about them online that we've seen -- I don't care what, if anything, they've done in the past.

I've always said I'd throw in my mouse the day it wasn't fun anymore. That day is here.

¤ ¤ credit: robyn | 02.23.03 at 12:16 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Like I said on New Year's Eve - you have to do what's right for you (and for Todd.) As for everyone else ... tough. Your feelings matter more than that. No one, no one should make you feel like they have lately.

¤ ¤ credit: Christine | 02.23.03 at 12:53 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

:(

Sometimes I think people suck, generally. (But not in a fun way.)

Anyway, I know what you mean. I used to know people like that. How dare I change (grow, do for me, not be a doormat, complain about being judged)! The usual.

You go ahead and do what's best for you. Let the no-lives screech and whine.

¤ ¤ credit: Andrea Harris | 02.23.03 at 12:54 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Oh Robyn...

I've read your site since you began. I've lurked and never posted very much, but every time I've emailed you, you've been so kind that I consider you a friend. I've laughed at your jokes, I've ran like a lemming to various sites you mentioned. And I cried like a baby when you came upon hard times, like they were coming upon myself. I refer to you as "my friend Robyn" even though I have never met you in person and only briefly through email. I am sad to see you go - I'll miss your insight and outlook, but most of all, I'll miss spending time with you(whether you knew it or not.) You have been a source of inspiration and joy to so many people.

I hate that it's come to this for you - But, as it's been said, YOU have to do what's best for you and Todd.

All the Best -

Dawn

¤ ¤ credit: Dawn G. | 02.23.03 at 02:16 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Thank you so much Dawn! I've e-mailed you privately.

This blog URL will still be active and updated. But it will now be the very definition of a blog -- weblog. No longer a combined blog / online diary / journal.

¤ ¤ credit: robyn | 02.23.03 at 02:30 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Im like Dawn in that I consider you a friend. When I talk about you, which is often cause you are so awesome, I say "my friend Robyn." You are an amazing person and I will be sad to see your blog go. It's one of handful that I read everyday and really enjoy. You must do what is right for you and Todd though. I wish you the best of luck in everything. :)
Ruthie

¤ ¤ credit: Ruthie | 02.23.03 at 03:48 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Ruthie and Dawn have stolen all my words... naughty nuaghty people... I just wanted to add how amuzing I find it when I mention my friend down in Tampa... then realize... wait she doesn't even really know who I am... I just know who she is from her blog... But you always seemed liked such an honest blogger... with so much love for everyone. I am going to miss hearing stories about you and Todd... You have a true passion for your friends, family and things you love. I hope the new blog will be much more fulfilling with a lot less pain... A lot of people are jealous of the popular blogs... but I am just happy that I can still be happy at mine without having the troubles you have.

¤ ¤ credit: Deb | 02.23.03 at 07:54 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Oh Robyn,
I am so sorry about all of this. *long hugs*
There is a whole rant of the evilness of some people, and their need to cause others pain, but i just can't put it into proper words right now.

I will miss your daily insights, and personal views, but as mentioned by the others, you have to do what is right for you and Todd. Wishing you both every goodness. All my love. Take care of yourselves.
*long tight hugs*

¤ ¤ credit: munin | 02.23.03 at 10:57 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

People really suck.
Sorry that you have to do this.. I will miss the way it was.

Best of luck to you and Todd in your lives...

¤ ¤ credit: Jen | 02.23.03 at 11:52 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Robyn,

I cannot believe that now of all times people have been so terrible to you. While I don't know they whole story (have not been online in a few days), I know something pretty bad must have happened. I know how much you enjoy this url, your blog, and the friends you have made.

I am saddened & disgusted that people would take a time like this & try & make you feel worse.

I am so sorry.

You know where I am, and you know tha I love ya chicadee.

¤ ¤ credit: Lynn | 02.23.03 at 12:15 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

I love you both.

¤ ¤ credit: michele | 02.23.03 at 01:45 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

As much as you and Todd are loved throughout the blogging community, I can't believe that some bottom feeders could be so cruel to you. I find that totally disgusting and repulsive. Part of your charm is your courage and willingness to speak openly about your feelings and your life. I will miss that, but cannot blame you for wanting to restructure your blogging format/style.

¤ ¤ credit: Susan | 02.23.03 at 01:59 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

The words have already been said, but I'll say them again. I feel privileged to have been able to catch a glimpse of your life (and Todd's). You two are an amazing couple. You've inspired me many times. I also consider you friends and think about you both all the time. I wish you both the best of everything.

¤ ¤ credit: Lisa, Gal of Unix | 02.23.03 at 02:13 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

I can't add much, but just wanted to send the two of you additional hugs. I just can't seem to put my feelings in to words to share with you. You absolutly have to do what is best for you.

¤ ¤ credit: ginadapooh | 02.23.03 at 03:13 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

Robyn,

I wish you didn't have to go through this. I can honestly say that I was surpised to have gotten a reply to an email that I sent you a few days ago.
NOT because I thought you were 'too good' to reply but because we all lead busy lives and I rarely have the time to reply to my own email on a regular basis.

To find yours the other day shows how truly wonderful you are. That you found time to respond to a stranger, with open arms and kind words, speaks volumes of the kind of person you are. No matter what happens, no one can take that away from you.

I will truly miss your journal.

xoxo
Eden

¤ ¤ credit: Eden | 02.23.03 at 04:58 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

It's a crying shame that a few "jackass bastard loser" apples had the spoil the bunch. Just remember for every 2 dickwads out there against you, there are 2 million people who think you're great. *in your corner, kid*

¤ ¤ credit: Tara | 02.23.03 at 05:31 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

Dear Robyn,

I'm really at a loss for words. Partly because I never thought I'd see the day come when someone would treat you so bad that it could lead to it being no fun for you anymore.

Not that much is fun lately. :(

Also, part of my loss for words comes from the fact that so many others have already said what I would.

Your ... blog/journal will be missed by me. This is probably going to sound voyeuristic and strange, but I always enjoyed taking a peek in and seeing what you were up to. I love your strength, and your sense of humor, and your style in general.

I understand your decision, though. I respect it, and feel that you are right when you say that when it stops being fun, it's time to walk away.

But it doesn't mean that I won't miss "Ain't Too Proud To Blog" ... at least, the way that it was. I'm so sorry that this has happened. I'm not 100% on the details, but I do know that someone has treated you awfully shabbily. No one deserves that. No matter what. I'm sorry it happened to you.

Sincerely,
Shelby

¤ ¤ credit: shelby | 02.23.03 at 06:58 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

:((((((((((((((((((((((((((((( So sorry to see you go. I wish you both the best.

¤ ¤ credit: queen | 02.23.03 at 07:31 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

:(
I hate it when the bastards ruin it for the rest of humanity. Just a few people that couldn't contain themselves within the bounds of decency, and a couple of truly interesting people have to draw lines and determine who gets in, and who waits outside.

¤ ¤ credit: a different Bill | 02.23.03 at 08:15 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

I'm so sorry to see that a few bad apples have spoiled it =(

I love the way you write, and my heart breaks for you and Todd. I haven't written any emails to you, and it's not because I didn't want to, I didn't want to bother you. I know how it feels, and I wasn't sure what to say. I was at a loss for words.

I wish that 2 people like you guys didn't have to go through what you did. You guys are the most giving, thoughtful people I have ever "met" through blogging. You deserve so much.

You will be missed by many, many people, but you gotta to do what you gotta do, and I totally understand. I can honestly say that this brought tears to my eyes while writing this, i'm such a sap sometimes, but I will miss your blogging.

*hugs*

¤ ¤ credit: Dania | 02.23.03 at 08:46 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

Robyn
I don't know you nor can I understand what you have been through. I will truly miss your candour and the true heart you put into your posts. I hope you both find a way to get through your pain.

I can understand you making your blog private. Some of the things that I have read about happening to you and other bloggers is the reason I have not seriously started my own.
Lots of Love

¤ ¤ credit: LisaC | 02.23.03 at 09:01 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

People who use other people's pain to get the attention they so desperately crave aren't worth your time, beautiful. You know you both have my love.

¤ ¤ credit: Bill | 02.23.03 at 09:09 PM | link--this ¤ ¤

Sad that a few could make things so miserable for you and, in turn, for the rest of us. That's something that I'll never understand about the net--or real life, for that matter. I've learned a lot from you on many different levels. Thank you for your willingness to share. I wish you and Todd all the very best that life has to offer. Aloha!

¤ ¤ credit: ali | 02.24.03 at 12:00 AM | link--this ¤ ¤

Aww, Robyn!

I'm sorry that this had to happen. I've enjoyed your blog every time I've read it, and I hope that you and Todd somehow find all of the happiness that you so richly deserve. Everything that everyone above has said echos my feelings. I do wish you the best, and I'll always be where you can find me.

*Hugs*

¤ ¤ credit: Kathryn | 02.24.03 at 04:27 PM | link--this ¤ ¤




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